Ari's life journey

The first day of the weekday. As usual we start the day by meeting with the Director. Our co-director is sick so we didn't discuss some issues where he's in charge. The meeting was very insteresting, the topics were hot and some were very important regarding our existence. And a few make me think very hard of what my future might be in this place, things that I should make sure to decide and prepare from now on.

Some intermezzo, during the meeting I ate a lot of cooked soy-bean. That's right, soy-bean. I've never thought that they can be so delicous, and moreover they're healthy food. I think I'll buy some and cook them by myself.

Now, let's talk something serious... that is LIFE.
If we think about it, average life-span of man is 65. Now, I am 30. Still 35 years old left. But the real productive time left for me is about until 55? That means 25 years left.

Now, what options do I have in life?
1. Keep going on with this organization
2. Start my own business
3. Pursue my life-long goal

It is the time when I'm not so sure what to decide. I have plan and wishes, but I really don't know if it will be come true. I have seen many of my plans went wrong and ended in total failure.

Well, I don't know. There are times when the most planned is the one that is failed, and the one that is not expected is the one that I get.

I remember in 2001, times when I was still actively engange in web-design. A friend of mine asked me to participate in a web-design competition in Untar, and she said the deadline was.... the next day! It meant that I only had 1 night to finish it. Anyway, I said OK and she applied myself for the competition. I sat in front of my computer for a long time blankly. I didn't know what/how I put the design. I browsed the year book for inspiration, and finally came up with an idea. So, I made myself wake up all night, and in 3am I finished the web. I was not sure, but when I finished it, I had this strong feeling that I would win, and I did! I took 2nd place winner for it. Wow!

But there is also times that make me sorry. One of them is when we were having a major conflict in my previous company. I think I made a wrong impression toward my big boss. If only I choose the right side, I think I could have been in Kuala Lumpur right now. He's still nice though, he invited us to visit him in KL for our honeymoon. He's great, he drove the latest BMW series 7 and paid all our accomodation there. It was really a sweet memory.

posted by Fajar @ 3:03 AM