Ari's life journey

Great news today. I've got a very important phonecall when I were in a meeting. Tomorrow, after lunch, I've got to ask permission to leave the office to get some papers.

Also, I've checked my account in the bank, and I've got a maximum annual bonus :) Thanks God.

Well, I visited my mom yesterday. Boy, I miss her. She had a big fight with my Dad, and now she lives by her own. Dear life, I don't know... I just feel sad if I look at my mom and Dad. They're not a happy couple, since I was little, they often argue. I don't know... maybe this is why I can't remember most of my childhood. Maybe my conscience unconsciously blocks all those unpleasant memories from my mind. It's true, I only remember bits of my childhood, and the good one is rare, mostly I remember the sad thing, especially when my parents argued.

My mom has been hurt by my father for so long. She always said that she wanted to leave my father, but she couldn't because of us - her childern. And now, after we all have our own family, she can't take it anymore. She said that in the years that she still have in her life, she wants to be happy. Oh God! I know that my mom always wants to go to France and visits the Lourdes. I want to finance her to go there, but my budget is limited. Oh God, please help me.

Last Friday, I went to the church alone because my wife had an occassion at the office. So, I attended the mass and lightened up 4 candles as she requested and prayed. I prayed quite a lot that time.

Dear life, as I said before. There are many times I'm so stressed because I don't know what will happen in life. But, now, I'm beginning to be able to give all my worries to God again. God, I trust that no matter what will happen, you have a beautiful plan for me. Amien.

posted by Fajar @ 3:06 AM