Ari's life journey

Dear life,
Another stressful day. Hehehe... At 13:30-14:30 our leased line was down again for the second time. This time it was Telkom's STO again. I don't understand how come a big company like Telkom acts in such unprofessional way. When I asked CSM about it, they said, "Well, you know Telkom. All government's company are all the same, if you know what I mean." Hehehe... a prove that it's difficult to reform the 'corrupt' mentality of our bureaucracy. Maybe someday...

I've got this beautiful words today :
Memberikan seluruh cintamu kepada seseorang bukanlah jaminan dia akan membalas cintamu. Jangan mengharapkan balasan cinta, tunggulah sampai cinta berkembang di hatinya, tetapi jika tidak, berbahagialah karena cinta tumbuh di hatimu.

In english, the translation goes like this:
Giving all your love to someone doesn't mean that she will love you back. Don't expect her to return your love, instead, wait for the love grows in her heart. If it doesn't grow, however, be happy that it grows in your heart.

Yes, I really like that words. I have a long conversation with my boss tonight. He said that if you love someone, you must be persistent. Keep trying.
I said to him, "But, I'm not settled yet, Sir. How come woman could be attracted to me? Woman needs some kind of material quality of man nowadays." "Well", he said, "If you wait until you've settled yourself, you might not be able to know whether a woman really loves you or just because of your money."

Hmm.. he has a point there.

posted by Fajar @ 6:05 AM 0 Comments

Dear life,
Finally, I have my first MCP in W2K Pro yesterday, hehehe.. Thank God. I was really nervous. My preparation was only from a tutorial and practising CD I bought at Citraland. However, the tutorial is really good, it provides simulation too. But, I didn't finished all the subject covered on the CD, I only managed to study the installation, managing folder and files, security, and hardware troubleshooting. I didn't study active directory user management very well (this subject has the most exercise).

Anyway, today has been another stressful day for me. So much to be done but so limited resources. But, I've read Henry Ford biography, and he had a very good principle that I like. "Everything is possible..... as long as you believe." Yes! I do believe I will get my dreams, God speed.

I read a chat transcript of Mr. Winson Lan. He's a successful businessman in Singapore who once almost lost his business, but, he struggled and succeeded in retaining his business and even now he's one of the most famous Singaporean businessmen. His motto is: "Never say die. If you have a dream, live up your dream. Eat with it, work with it, sleep with it." I like his motto very much. He's become my inspiration.

Never be afraid of tomorrow.

posted by Fajar @ 4:12 AM 0 Comments

Dear life,
I have been not in the mood for these last couple of days. I don't know why, I just feel that everyone is sucks!!! Hehehe... even my good assistant seemed bad. I know it's wrong.... I'm sorry. Well, I must say this to him personally.

Thanks to Sandy, a good friend of mine in IRC. We talked a lot tonight, somehow I feel the burden on my shoulders lighter. By the way, he recommended me to listen to a song titled "ONCE" by Air Supply. It's an instrumental song. He said the song is really suitable for day-dreaming about someone we love. Hehehe....

Anyway, I found this website of Air Supply's fans and I like the lyrics from the song "When I say" in The book of love album. That's exactly how I feel about someone I love.....

WHEN I SAY

I just saw a picture, from the lost and found
It was taken the day that we met
With so many people around

All my false bravado seemed to disappear
So I just had to follow my heart
I knew it would take me somewhere

And I still feel the same
But it's heart to explain
All my emotions are tossed in the wind
Lost 'til the moment, I hold you again

When I say I love you
When I say I need you
When you say come closer
I know I'll never leave you

You can stare into heaven
When your heart is free
I supppose that we just couldn't wait
For heaven is where we must be

And we still feel the same
No need to explain
I don't see the shadows
I don't feel the rain
I'm walking in sunlight
I'll tell you again

When I say I want you
When I say I need you
When you say come closer
I know I'll never leave you
When I say I love you
When you come closer
I know I'll never leave you

posted by Fajar @ 5:46 AM 0 Comments