Ari's life journey

A very busy day today. I almost lost my temper in the morning because of it. The big boss wanted me to do a shortcut, while the director was against it. Well, what should I do? I am the one who is like a pawn here. I spoke my mind frankly to him, and finally he could accept it, while still reminded me of the risk of doing it.

Well, I hate office politics. The boss asked me to do some analyzes to choose the right vendor for Barcode system, but actually we did this several months ago, and our recommendation was put in the lingo because of 'unspecified reason' (like in the X-Files). Hehe.. Anyway, I'll do it again. I'm not the boss here, right?

Dear life, actually I'm out of idea of what I should write in this 3rd paragraph. But encep a long time friend of mine suggests me to write about our 'royal dial-up connection'. :) Well, as you know, we're still using a full-speed 56K dial-up modem for our internet connection. It's ok, it's fast and stable, but as long as only being shared for few users, but starting 10am upward, the internet is totally suck! Thanks God there is htb. I take 80% of the bw for myself. Haha.. naughty me, but no... I'm not that bad, it's only when I need to ssh to my colo-server. I hope when we upgrade to wireless Lan or ADSL, we'll have a better speed.

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I started the day by writing an email, a very important email. I put all my feeling and thought about the place I work for, and sent it to some key person but the Director. Well, I guess they discussed it, because suddenly my boss started asking me about wireless internet, etc. Wow! I hope this is a good sign. Well, I prayed before I sent the email, because I think it contains a very important and sensitive information.

Now, let's talk about something more casual, shall we?
I love science fiction movies, especially Startrek. I often imagine myself what it's like to be able to travel among the stars. Visiting strange worlds and meeting with exotic aliens. I once had this bizarre dream when I was in junior highschool. In the dream I stood in the middle of a large yard near my home, and in the sky, I could see many stars, galaxies, and planets. And they are all so clear, so near. As if I could touch them. I can still remember it until now.

Well, interstellar space travel won't be happening in my life time, but I'm sure I will witness the landing of man on Mars. Who knows, we would find prove of life there :)

posted by Fajar @ 3:14 AM 0 Comments

Yesterday, I and my wife went to Gajah Mada Plaza. There we visited several pet shops. Oh, they have many cute puppies: golden retriever, pom-pom, bulldog, chow-chow, puddle, terrier, etc. I especially love golden retriever, while my wife loves pompom. We argued, and finally she agreed to keep golden retriever later when we can :) The reason I like golden retriever, is because they are big dogs but also very cute and smart.



The latest was my late dog. Her name was Boomer, named after a dog movie-star the "Boomer" series.

By the way, it is amazing how my website from 1998 (1999 published) is still kept on http://fajar.freeservers.com

posted by Fajar @ 3:18 AM 0 Comments

The first day of the weekday. As usual we start the day by meeting with the Director. Our co-director is sick so we didn't discuss some issues where he's in charge. The meeting was very insteresting, the topics were hot and some were very important regarding our existence. And a few make me think very hard of what my future might be in this place, things that I should make sure to decide and prepare from now on.

Some intermezzo, during the meeting I ate a lot of cooked soy-bean. That's right, soy-bean. I've never thought that they can be so delicous, and moreover they're healthy food. I think I'll buy some and cook them by myself.

Now, let's talk something serious... that is LIFE.
If we think about it, average life-span of man is 65. Now, I am 30. Still 35 years old left. But the real productive time left for me is about until 55? That means 25 years left.

Now, what options do I have in life?
1. Keep going on with this organization
2. Start my own business
3. Pursue my life-long goal

It is the time when I'm not so sure what to decide. I have plan and wishes, but I really don't know if it will be come true. I have seen many of my plans went wrong and ended in total failure.

Well, I don't know. There are times when the most planned is the one that is failed, and the one that is not expected is the one that I get.

I remember in 2001, times when I was still actively engange in web-design. A friend of mine asked me to participate in a web-design competition in Untar, and she said the deadline was.... the next day! It meant that I only had 1 night to finish it. Anyway, I said OK and she applied myself for the competition. I sat in front of my computer for a long time blankly. I didn't know what/how I put the design. I browsed the year book for inspiration, and finally came up with an idea. So, I made myself wake up all night, and in 3am I finished the web. I was not sure, but when I finished it, I had this strong feeling that I would win, and I did! I took 2nd place winner for it. Wow!

But there is also times that make me sorry. One of them is when we were having a major conflict in my previous company. I think I made a wrong impression toward my big boss. If only I choose the right side, I think I could have been in Kuala Lumpur right now. He's still nice though, he invited us to visit him in KL for our honeymoon. He's great, he drove the latest BMW series 7 and paid all our accomodation there. It was really a sweet memory.

posted by Fajar @ 3:03 AM 0 Comments